my other xanga still won't let me sign in!! what is this help@xanga.com if they don't even wanna help me?? i been waiting all day bah. please help me. dudeeee. well i hope i can go to stevens house on monday!! i dun wanna go back to skool already so boring. i just wanna go beach, shopping, eat, sleep, and party!! haha. well hmm what did i do today. faye came over and worked on her xanga. we went to pearls. looking for shoes. she got nice new shoes. hehe. and someone called us and were stalking us!! man we were getting kinda scared and guess who it was. dun dun dun. krystal and nanea. haha. yeah but they got us with that being watched feeling for a while. realllll funny guysss. nah. but we was scared. haha. okee well das all i guess. oh yeah and faye and me went anna millers. it was goooooooooooddd. im going now. take care <33. God Bless, Luv, and Aloha, Carin.

p.s. is it almost my birthday yet?? haha.

my other xanga isn't letting me sign in so im here for a little while. but please continue to visit my other newer xanga! yup. uhh. oh yeah i just wanted to say that the korean drama ALL IN kicks major butt. watch it! it haven't been watching it. watch now. although the last two episodes are next week :/ wednesday. and thursday. watch alrighty? my favorite stores are..BEBE. forever 21. AMERICAN EAGLE. and i can't think of anymore right now. hehehe. okee buh bye! take care <33. and remember that Jesus Loves You!

God Bless, Luv, and Aloha,

Carin.

today. right now. i feel as if everything is pointless.

totally pointless. i feel depressed. alone. sad. mad.

nothing is going right. and i feel like a stupid lazy person who can't do anything right.

i have family problems, i deal with them everyday. but today everything is just getting to me because i feel like i have no where to turn to. when i have family probs, i turn to my friends. when i have friend probs, i turn to my family. but what happens when i have both problems? i turn to God right? what's wrong with me. i know what direction to go in. but my lazy ass won't move.

nothing is going right. i need God. i just hope that one day some day soon. maybe tommorow. things will all be alright. i don't want to cry myself to sleep. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.

i love my family. i wonder who my true friends are. i wonder if i have a soul mate out there. i think im realizing who my closer friends are. but the rest. where did things go wrong? i don't understand.

i want to go to heaven. when the time is right. it'll be total peace. love. everything unimaginably wonderful.

hey kidz. come stay over my house please. or just come. im scared of these angry korean people. haha.

okay well let me know if you like come kay??

everyone went stevens house except meeeee..ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..

overprotectiveangrykoreanfamily. grr. i wonder if my friends even miss me. i miss them. im so lonely. haha.

update: it's monday morning. and i never sleep last night. hmm i was tired b4 so i slept from like 7-9. then from 9-well now..i ain't aleeping. har har. and it's almost 8 a.m. i watched sailor moon and ate cereal and listened to the radio all morning. eh yeah.